"If I lay here,
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world"

I dont know why, but im really touched. Maybe its just whats happening with me.

Im a simple man. I just want to love and be loved.

Caught up in the many trappings of life and everyday nonsense, i dont know. Maybe 2 people just lose the plot.

Im very very famous for talking about this fantastical 'woman'. I dont know if she exists. Even if she does, tragically we may never meet.
We may just walk past each other on a busy street.
I might come back with a foggy picture of her striking face.

You were meant for me. And I am pretty sure I was meant for you.

Ho hum, here I go again!

Or maybe I would have seen you and committed the greatest crime of all time.

I would have run.

Ive done that 15 times and counting.

A man who does not have the confidence to bring the best out of his woman, and is always steeped in disempowering conversations about himself..presenting - me! And that chattering..oh FUCK..that chattering in my head.

Maybe I was meant to be on the run. And live my life in retrospect! Oh yes - THAT makes a lot of sense!

Maybe im this pseudo-activist/writer/blah. Maybe im doing it all to get closer to you.
That I will have something to speak about when im with you.

Shucks..i so badly want to hold your hand. Make you laugh. NOT make you cry!
Get down on my knees. Do those stupid stupid 'romantic' things. Oh believe me - I would love to do it!
Buy you whatever your lil precious heart desires. Just to look at that lovely feeling of content in your eyes! The look that radiates happiness in every direction.
Just to hold your hand and feel the world slow down. Make authentic statements like 'you are my drug' and shit! It would actually make sense in your case!

FUCK..i dont know why im writing this nonsense. I DONT know why im putting this out on a public blog that anyone can read.
Its ok, rape my privacy. Rape that 'opinion' you have about me.

I dont give a damn to you, btw.

I AM gonna stay firmly in my head.