Please forgive me

Please Forgive me.

It wasnt me.

I never meant to say that to you,
I never meant to do that to you,

I took you for granted,
I played with your life,

I was too absorbed in my life,
And tumbling down into an irreversible vortex,
And I was dragging you in with me.

Please forgive me.

No matter how much you loved me,
Who I was being was that nobody loves me,
And im all alone.

I gave you nothing.
And now, im willing to give you my heart.

These tears roll down my face,
As i am down on my knees,
I beg you.

I treated you like shit,
I fucked around with you,
I messed up time and again,
But please forgive me,
Cuz thats how I treat myself.
I considered you a part of me.
And I took your life for granted.

Now as I see you walk away,
Into another man's arms,
The picture is suddenly clear to me,
I drove you to desperation.
I chased you away from me.

What would you do if the lord took away the one you loved,
Its even worse when a mere mortal takes away the one you love.

Could you live with the fact that you drove her away from you?
Could you live to see her spend her life with another man?

I never said that I wanted you to go away,
I just needed some time,
To realise and recreate the magic of my life,
You are the magic of my life,
And I have arrived.

The guy that you fell in love with,
The words that you have waited for,
I am saying it from my heart,
And I mean it.

No matter what you do to me,
Even if you shatter my heart,
Play with it like its putty,
Take your revenge for what I did,
Drive me to my deepest downs,
I am big enough to forgive you.

I love you.

Innocence

It is moments of innocence that binds two people together.

Makes sense?

Those virgin moments of growing up, those pure moments of enjoying music together, those moments of pure emotion during a calamity.. that one moment when time stands still and all pretenses of life shake off and humanity is experienced in its purest form.

Still doesn't make sense, right?

Anina is a great friend of mine.

We got related by some inexorable twist of fate. Music, as they say is a language without borders. Music, brought us together and between song and song list swapping we became close like ne'er before.

The regular problems that I used to face with women was completely non-existent when it came to anina. I would never be able to have a long conversation with a pretty woman. With anina, it was simple. The kind of bond we shared, the conversation would direct itself in directions perfectly comfortable to the both of us. And no conversation, was as simple as pie. We would immediately start talking about some new music. And so, we discovered each other.

She was a deer caught in a cage.

I was a deer caught in a car's headlights.

One day it so happened that I picked up a magazine. And as I flipped the pages disinterestedly, I chanced upon the fashion section.

And that one moment, my jaw dropped, my head reeled and I did a double take.

That moment I fully grasped the power of relationships. That unalterable bond that grips two people when they meet in their innocence.

I would never imagine anyone in a magazine to be innocent. Much less be pure and unpretentious.

Anina was the glamorous diva in that page.

That moment my perception altered.

*Some names have been changed to protect the privacy of certain individuals.
*Published under the act of individual privacy 101.

Kickass link has been discovered!

Ever wondered what snarkfest meant? Or maybe b fuggly? Or maybe the 'new' definition of granny?

Hahaha...you can spend hours on this shit! Trying to understand the new global lingua franca of our generation is incredibly hilarious! Lol!

Or how about discovering some new concepts that are taking over the world?!

Of course, i didnt spend hours on it, but i bet you can!

Runaway!!

Sometimes, I just wanna run away.

No, not in a hey-look-at-me-im-a-quitter kinda way. I just want to get out and expand!

Im sick and tired of sitting in office for some goddamn 18 hours a day, firefighting and dealing with mess after mess, terribly irritating people who take my f*ckin time for granted and make me wait for ages and also take the liberty of making me wrong.

Like I keep saying in my biz blog, i made some grave learning-curve-actions, in other words, godamn mistakes!

I have been sleeping over this idea for quite a few days now. And i feel like i have no outlet! I have not been able to discuss the innovation and how it will turn the world around with ANYONE! No personal relationships run that technical, and no work relationships run that well..technical and intellectual! minor insults apart (lol), like i was saying, i have been unable to really express what this idea is.

Ladies and gents, please bookmark this page and save this blog, as it will make history in a few years time and remember, you heard about it first!! (lol, using the classic media techniques to boost readership and TRP ratings ;) only difference is that none of that exist here!)

So, as i browse through different VC firms and speculate business models and make powerpoint presentations, i get this strong horrible sense of ennui. I desperately need a holiday! I have worked and worked and wasted and wasted, how i want to do that in exotic foreign locales, beautiful beaches and tech-savvy VCs! either drinking a chilled beer on some sexy beach or belting out my spiel in a Silicon Valley boardroom, Yea! GETAWAY!!