im becoming absolutely addicted to weather report.

have finished 8th semester..three cheers.
dwee got into motorola..three cheers.
and i still havent earned a buck...three cheers.
oh guess what i got a credit card.i shall be putting up my credit card number and PIN next blog so that everyone can use a bit.

this sunday i have an IL weekend.
for the ignorant an IL is an introduction leader who leads intorductions to the landmark forum.
the introduction leaders program is a 6 and half month program that is reputed to be the toughest training program in the world.
and yes..i successfully completed it and i am an introduction leader who makes the power and magic of transformation alive and real to the whole world.

why doesnt the whole world want transformation?

the kind of difference landmark education has made to my life is magical stuff.before i did the program i was someone who was sooooo stopped from doing the things i most wanted to in life.
i was a confused, insecure, indecisive and scared little kid who was always at the butt of everyones jokes and never had even a semblance of power in dealing with life.
i ran away from 14 beautiful women..i wasted years and years of my life doing nothing and crap..ive spent thousands of nights cursing about why life is so cruel to me..ive spent years suffering, hating hanging out with whoever i used to cuz i was the soft-target of everyone...oh god i was so fucking complexed...i used to hate life cuz i was clear that no one loved me and that i was disgusting looking...and that im worthless and not worth tuppence..that im never going to be good enough..even for another persons love...i had failed in life..completely and i was going down the road..i could not draw respect from even a dog on the road..i was gullible..i had a trash relationship with my family...i HATED my life!

oh yea..it moves me mightily to write stuff like this..but this was my experience of life.

the one day my mom did some 3 day workshop and came back acting all wierd..doing things i had never seen her do.
like tell me she loves me some hundred times..like go swimming at 5 in the morn..ok she had gone completely nuts!
and she gave me no choice...even tho i resisted she PUT me in the next landmark forum.
and i entered the world of transformation.

today i head a publishing unit..own print and publish STRANGE BREW...which was my dream until i converted it to reality.
i deal with not-so-nice people everyday...juggle a hundred things at a time..deal with breakdowns like on a daily basis..
and my life has never been better.
i can deal with everyone..my experience of life is completely completely altered and im living a life of my dreams..im living a life of my choice...of my calling..of my passion..im living life the way i say it.
and i think thats a damn good life to be leading!cuz im living from anything being possible.

once you enter the world of possibilty life will go the way you say it will go.

i think the whole world deserves this stuff!
thats why im a IL :-)